Where is the balance in my life?

It seems like the relaxing period has to leave me gradually. I am about to experience another panic attack soon. Have to absorb all these abstract philosophical idea from millions of nursing journals. Have to understand the complexity of the patient conditions in the hemotology unit where my current clinicial placement is. Have to become a medical expert as well as provide adequate comfort measure to my patients. Have to be able to apply those theoretical concepts in a practical way. Have to write tons of papers, projects, and presentations. Other than all these external factors, internal factors such as the feeling of guilt (b/c of missing fellowship and church life), feeling of doubt (how can I manage to be a good devotion in Horeb, a good daugter, a good student, a good nurse and a good girl friend), feeling of anger (b/c I have to face all these things by myself) and many other negative feelings make me feel like I am going to explode very soon. I know I need a balance in my life now. Where is my balance? Where are you, Jesus? If you do care, please put me in your prayer.